Man Opens Up About First Time Watching Gay Porn, Discovers He’s Not Completely Straight

A young man took to a Reddit LGBT group for gay men to share a revelation about his sexuality – the discovery that he is not completely straight after watching gay porn.

In a post titled: “So I’m a “straight” guy and I just watched gay porn for the first time…”, the man admits to watching a gay porn video which turned him on in a way he had never experienced before.

He writes:

I’ve been [a member of GayBros] for a while, I guess it was a way for my brain to try and tell me that I might be something else than just “straight” but I guess it’s taken me a while to admit.

I came across one of the porn threads a couple days ago and decided “Eh, what the fuck, I’ll give it a go…” and watched some of it.
Well anyways let’s just say I didn’t expect to feel the way I did afterwards. I’ve always sort of thought I might be bi or gay but I’ve never acted out on it, primarily because my father is a huge homophobe.

I’ve been figuring out my emotions for the past few days and it’s been pretty weird. I think I’m probably bi, but then again who knows.
I’m a little anxious about me actually figuring out what the hell I am because of how homophobic my dad is.

Anyways, sorry for the wall of text, I just needed somewhere to vent and I haven’t got anywhere else to go…

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One reddit user left this wonderful piece of advice:

First off, never apologize, bro. Many won’t have the exact experience as you, but all will be able to relate. This is partly what this, and other subs of the like, are for.

Figuring yourself out can be a process, so be patient with yourself and don’t stress yourself out or feel like you should know yourself through and through. I’m 23 and I’m still figuring more about myself all the time.

Knowing what you are, and accepting who you are are very different things. I knew I was bi for a long time, but I didn’t accept I was bi until about two years ago.

The best advice I would give is to immerse yourself at whatever rate you feel most comfortable with. The worst feeling is thinking you’re doing something wrong or feeling a way you shouldn’t. Just always remember and maybe even say to yourself that what you’re feeling is real. It’s real and nobody can tell you differently. There’s nothing wrong, weird, or bad about what you’re feeling. It just might be different or scary, because change and going against a possible parents wishes is going to be nerve wracking whether it’s about your sexuality or getting a tattoo they don’t approve of.

Keep on experimenting with different things. For me, personally, porn and fantasizing was the route I took in discovering my orientation and then also figuring out what I like don’t like within that “genre” for lack of a better word.

Keep your chin up, be safe in all areas, clear your browser history, and most importantly keep your chin up. This could either be wicked hard or you might take it in stride. Every one is different. There’s no “right” or “wrong” way to come to a conclusion on yourself.

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After reading through dozens of replies, he thanked his fellow redditors for all of the wonderful replies: “Thanks a ton for the help guys. I’ve received some awesome pieces of advice and I now think my approach to my sexuality has changed drastically. This is an awesome community!

He then provided these two updates:

EDIT: Wow so I used a throwaway for this since my friends know my main account, logged back into this one to find amazing answers. I love you guys <3.

EDIT 2: I knew this community was supportive, but I never realised how good it would make me feel to post this and have people emphasize with me. Putting how I feel down has been like lifting a huge weight off my shoulders.

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